Changes

I seem to be making more and more changes to my lifestyle these days and some of it is rather shocking even to me.  I mean, last fall I joined a gym, I now eat three or four times the vegetables I used to, I started eating salads with spinach, I’ve added beans to my diet and now the shocker of all shocker is I have just started to drink soy milk. I had decided to try a soy based shake to help me get the nutrients I need plus I am hoping it will help me lose my tummy fat. So the other day I bought the soy milk and tried it. It really is okay and tastes pretty good in the shake. But now well let me be truly honest, the real reason I have sunk to the soy level.....HOT FLASHES. They started two months ago and are literally driving me insane. I know I will survive because every other woman has but really they are a bit much. They come on 24/7 and seem to zap my energy along with any brain cells I may have been trying to use at the time. Needless to say I have not been working to my full capacity because I am sleep deprived, hot and sweaty and then cold and shaky. I dress in layers, the sweaters go on and then sweaters come off. Going to the gym is almost a nightmare. I have never been one to perspire much but now my body turns into a lake. At night the covers are many and deep and then they are tossed aside in a hurried frenzy. At times I just want out of my skin it is so hot. Fifteen minutes later it ends and I grab, re-sort the covers and bury myself back under them and try to feel warm even though I am now freezing cold and clammy. It truly is enough to make one go insane.

For years I have always given God a female gender even though I really don’t believe God has any gender at all but it has been fun to tease and irk some people. Frankly at this point in my life I can’t even joke about it because I believe God is creator of all and there isn’t a chance in h____ anything female would even consider dumping all this on a person. Personally I really have no idea what males go through with their bodies as they journey through life but in my opinion I think women have gotten a bad deal and these last two months have confirmed my beliefs. I may even have to agree that God must be male...it really seems to be the only reasoning in all of this.

So life shall carry on but if you happen to run into me be prepared. I may be cold,  I may be hot. I may begin to remove clothing from my body, fan myself and totally speak incoherently (although I do this regularly anyway) but as with everything in life...this too will pass....I just hope it passes very quickly  and I can get back to my breakfast of honey nut cheerios and my regular moo milk. I mean I don’t want to get too healthy. It may give people the wrong impression and they will start to feed me mushrooms or tofu J

Goal Achieved !!

Last month I had my last training session and check in at the gym. I have reached my goal!!  I have lost over 15 pounds, quite a few inches and I feel pretty good about it all.  Not only has my 4 months at the gym given me a healthier body, an improved look but it has also shown me that sometimes when we try new things we can be pleasantly surprised. I was so sure I did not want to join the gym and have a trainer but I have totally enjoyed it and hope to continue on. I will admit it is not always easy to make myself get up out of bed at 5 am and get down to the gym and it will take even more will power to continue to do this now that I have reached my goal, but I do not want to lose all that I have gained nor gain all that I have lost. J My trainer at the gym has been so great and so much fun that I shall miss having her harp on me to keep doing more and more exercises but I have my program and it is time to fly solo and carry on. After all at my age one shouldn’t need someone to “whip” them into shape.

So I have set some new goals for the gym and it is probably time I set some new goals in my life. I am not really one to set goals but I believe the time has come, otherwise I think life could just pass by and be over before I know it. I want to live life and not just live. Time goes by so quickly and I always feel I still have lots of time in my life to do the things I want to do but one never really knows do they. There are no guarantees in life that I will get a tomorrow. So what to do, what to do? What can be my next goal....what do I want to try to do that is new and exciting that will help me to grow as a person.

In the last month I have had two support people in my life tell me to make lists. One person suggested I list all the things I enjoy doing in life...the other person suggested I list all the skills I have plus all the things I like to do in life but do badly. I have created these lists and they are very short. And I still don’t know what I want to do, what next goal I need to reach. In the last couple of weeks I have also had two people tell me that I talk so much that I answer my own questions. So...maybe it is time to get back to meditation and prayer, to be quiet and to listen. Hopefully God will gently whisper in my ear and guide me to a new goal and a new challenge. I shall remain hopeful.